Our journey to Seth began in April 2007. I was listening to a man speak that we had met a few weeks earlier at a dinner. He was missing part of his arm. As he was speaking I had the thought, "Maybe you'll have a son who is missing his arm." It was such an odd thought, and I wondered if perhaps it wasn't just my own random thought, but perhaps inspiration from the Lord. I wrote it down in my impressions journal waiting to see if anything came of it.
A few weeks later in May, I received an email about a little boy, who couldn't find a family and his file was being sent back to China. I emailed the agency, they sent pictures. When I saw SiYuan's picture for the first time, saw his missing arm, I felt a tug of familiarity. I thought for sure, he was ours. I named him Seth. We desperately wanted to adopt him, but financially just couldn't do it. We tried several ways to make it possible, but nothing worked out. I cried and cried wondering why I would have such strong feelings, only to have it not work out.Another family was matched with him, and I tried to be content that he had a family. But there were times when we'd be sitting at the dinner table and I would feel overwhelmed with sadness that he wasn't sitting there with all of us. I called his agency several times to double check that the family was still moving forward with him. They were.
My father-in-law passed away in September 2007 and we ended up with a small amount of money, not tons, but enough to do another adoption. We started looking at little boys files again. I looked for boys with a missing arm, but didn't find any that I felt any sense of connection to. In November I did find a little boy with a blood disorder that I fell in love with. For a month my husband and I prayed and soul searched. I wanted to move forward, but Derek just didn't feel right about it. I was so frustrated and couldn't figure out why we couldn't be on the same page.Then in December 2007 Seth's agency (BAAS) emailed us saying that SiYuan was available again. The family that had been matched with him, had completed their paperwork and were approved by China, but had changed their mind. I was elated. I called Derek up at work. He said let's talk tonight, but he called me back a little while later and said, "I'm scared, but let's move forward, I feel like this is right." We feel that Seth is meant to come to our family, and we have seen the tender mercies of the Lord bless our lives to finally make that a possibility
A few weeks later in May, I received an email about a little boy, who couldn't find a family and his file was being sent back to China. I emailed the agency, they sent pictures. When I saw SiYuan's picture for the first time, saw his missing arm, I felt a tug of familiarity. I thought for sure, he was ours. I named him Seth. We desperately wanted to adopt him, but financially just couldn't do it. We tried several ways to make it possible, but nothing worked out. I cried and cried wondering why I would have such strong feelings, only to have it not work out.Another family was matched with him, and I tried to be content that he had a family. But there were times when we'd be sitting at the dinner table and I would feel overwhelmed with sadness that he wasn't sitting there with all of us. I called his agency several times to double check that the family was still moving forward with him. They were.
My father-in-law passed away in September 2007 and we ended up with a small amount of money, not tons, but enough to do another adoption. We started looking at little boys files again. I looked for boys with a missing arm, but didn't find any that I felt any sense of connection to. In November I did find a little boy with a blood disorder that I fell in love with. For a month my husband and I prayed and soul searched. I wanted to move forward, but Derek just didn't feel right about it. I was so frustrated and couldn't figure out why we couldn't be on the same page.Then in December 2007 Seth's agency (BAAS) emailed us saying that SiYuan was available again. The family that had been matched with him, had completed their paperwork and were approved by China, but had changed their mind. I was elated. I called Derek up at work. He said let's talk tonight, but he called me back a little while later and said, "I'm scared, but let's move forward, I feel like this is right." We feel that Seth is meant to come to our family, and we have seen the tender mercies of the Lord bless our lives to finally make that a possibility
5 comments:
Wonderful! I think we feel the same way about our adoption of Grace, it's a little scary, but we know it's right. (She's 9 years old and we hope to travel this fall-also to Sha'anxi province)Others may question your difficult decisions, but there is no denying a personal answer to prayer!
Good luck as you wait!
Stephenie Earl
(from your UT valley adoption group)
We are so happy for you and your family! We're excited to meet Seth! Congratulations!
Love your blog Cyndie - it turned out sooo cute!!!
Can't wait to follow your adventures with Seth - he is a doll!!!
p.s. with some difficulty I added a feed to my blog - so go subscribe :) Thanks for the info on how to do it!
Oh, I love to hear how the Lord works so creatively in people's lives! Clearly He had the perfect plan and the perfect time in mind for Seth to be yours!!!! Danielle does my blog too, and I found your site from her links. Blessings as you move forward in your journey!
Diana
(First a Pearl, Then a Ruby)
I am home sluffing church with Kai and I just had a minute to read your blog. You have brought tears to my eyes. Your sentiments are so close to my heart as we have just brought Kai home and all that has happened with him. It is all meant to be. Thank you for your great example! Love you, Kim
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